where is home?

Aida Azlin's videos or podcasts or love letters always leave me to reflect. Almost every time especially when the topic hits right in the heart.

I've always been at one place all my live. Which is here in Singapore, in my family home. I never felt the need to move out and live on my own until recently. After exchange, it just made me feel how much I want to go on living on my own in a space of my own. Been sharing a room all my life and that 5 months having a room on my own felt like a much needed thing. Communal living sharing the toilet and kitchen is not so bad after all and it just felt like I don't mind living like that.

I don't know what is home anymore but back at my supposed "home" doesn't feel like a home anymore. Home is where I feel I can be free and my true self. I don't feel like I can be that way anymore when I'm living with my family. I think once in a while it's just a nice feeling to get away for awhile. Just for my introvert self to be on my own without my family. InsyaAllah I hope I'll be able to this often maybe twice a year before I get hitched and maybe even I got hitched.

For now, I just have to make the best of my current home and hopefully can live my life happily.